polish donuts are called poonchkins

take me to a land where dreams come true..
you know, i was wondering if that shit can actually happen.. i remember growing up i used to watch a show called dragon tales, which still comes on t.v. incase you want to watch it.. i doubt it will be of any interest; however, my point is, this show took two youngsters to dragon land, where they met and hung out with dragons. i remember watching this show and wishing that i were able to go to a different world where i would be able to escape the realities of real life. which is ofcourse not possible.
i hate the thought of not being able to understand where and how this whole thing has come up again, possibly brought on by my long work hours, a ruthless boss, and a manager from an old work place who likes to flirt.
horrible right? it is in many ways.. but in some ways i do love my job, the pay cheque and also the perks. many perks i get.. which i do enjoy.. including trips.
however, i don't know how long i'll be able to stay under the pressure until i blow up.
i don't like to bring work home. but it follows me and stays around.. along with the lack of sleep and missed t.v shows. how sad am i?
i'm not sure if i want to post this.. but i think i will..
when i had to call in sick the other day .. my conversation went something like this "hello.. um hi.. i think i'd like to call in sick.. i think. um thanks.. bye" my lack of confidence due to this job scares me.
bloooody sugar sticks.
i think i'll finish off here and go take a long cold walk outside.. it's cloudy and cold. just how i hate it <3
toodles poonchkins

customers can go suck my

was at work today, obviously, and was so busy, i didn't get a chance to take a break to eat.

why are people who need HELP so fucking rude?

they come to me to get help, swear at me, tell me that i'm useless, then wait till i help them and then they leave. my manager tells me to "let customers vent" .... .... is she fucking kidding me?

let them vent? what the hell is that supposed to mean? okay fine, they can stand there and kiss their teeth while they wait because there are only two people working at a time, and fine, they can swear and ask me why i'm not helping them even though the person i am helping was there before them, FINE okay okay, they can swear at me also, but BUT the fuckers CANNOT insult me, i don't care who it is, i will talk back. i think people think they can get away with murder when it comes to customer service. i'm a little person, very petite, and i think that makes some fucking huge elephant sized women and men think they can intimidate me, not until they try. when i refuse to help them, i feel good.

my manager on the other hand is an idiot who only cares about sales and numbers, ofcourse, she does need her bonus, which makes me want to drop kick her on the face. bitch.

my concern with companies like mine, which shall remain anonymous here, are such users. why do they let fucking people walk all over their employees and expect people to stand there and take shit from these fuckers all day?

they're pathetic if they think people always end up being like that. i say my mind to these fucking people, if you can't communicate with me in a professional manner, in a fucking professional environment, because bitch i don't know you and don't give a shit about you either, then i will REFUSE to fucking even look at you, try me. there should be a bill passed to protect people who work in places like i do, where i'm scared that one of these people will walk behind the counter and slash me. ugh.

i think a lot of you can relate and know exactly what i am talking about.

which kind of sucks, i think we as a society are utterly depressed and sadistic people.

and some people just need to be thrown off the face of the planet. agreed?

stupid corporations.

honestly,
big corporations scare me.
they really do, that's why i have always wanted to be my own boss..
so that i wouldn't have to sleep with someone just to get ahead in life..

it really depresses me when i even think about women trying to get somewhere..
i mean i was talking to my sister about this, and we came to the conclusion that large corporations are corrupt and no one wants to admit it.

i think the main reason that i ever even thought about being a journalist was to be the voice for the unspoken.
i know people are hurting, i've worked with these women who have let people walk all over them, without a choice ofcourse, but live a life daily, just suffering in their own skin.
and i know they can't say much because, they need a way to feed themselves and their families.

i truly feel their pain, but it's not like i'm the only person who knows this.
i'm sure that every person behind this, the government, people working under these corporations know exactly what i am trying to say.

i hate sounding like i feel sorry for people, because i don't. i just want to make a difference .. i just wish the world was a more equal place.
i wish there really was no racism, which btw, pisses me off because, people act like it's not out there, but when you step into someone's safe haven, you hear the truth. i know i have. and it hurts.

i fucking hate people with unnecessary power. kill me if you don't agree, because you probably are one of them.

this one's to the company i once worked for. i hate you.