Playing with fire

When they're there but don't know how to be there.
It's probably impossible to make someone care for you the way you care for them.
This really takes a toll on any relationship. I've struggled to keep trust alive when I honestly don't think you are honest with me.. even with the stupidest of things.
It is a horrendous feeling to feel the things I do right now.
I am really scared for myself. I have never felt so alone in my life.
I cannot express the thought processes in my mind right now. I am just scared I may have fallen to deep into something I should have avoided from the beginning. They were right when they said I am not the right person for them. They were right when they said it felt as if I was building a relationship based on my own feelings. I cannot trust your feelings anymore I am so utterly hurt I don't know.

I just don't know..