okay, scroll down, turn off the background music, click here when you do: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OEH9GfYJT9M .. ready? now read.
maybe it'll help you get where i am right now, i'm listening to this song, on a rainy, snowy, cold, spring day. spring is supposed to be beautiful.
you know, it has been 8 years, if i'm counting right, since i have seen my own brother. i'm sure i have mentioned him before, i've lost a count of all my posts. im sure i have.
well my brother, truly an amazing person.. is hopefully well.. where ever he is. sadly, he isn't a part of my life, doesn't mean that i don't love him. but i guess after the events with the family, he decided it was better he stays away from us. however, abandoning us, in my opinion, wasn't the best idea.
it hurts to watch my mother hurt. it hurts to even think about him. sometimes time means nothing. it might be easier to live your daily life ignoring the whole matter, whatever the matter may be, it doesn't mean things are different tomorrow.
i mean i do wake up happy everyday (maybe not right away, i'm up at 3:15 am for work), but i am a morning person overall. i try to remember that everyday is a gift and we should all share our happiness and kindness with the world.
i wish the world was a better place, i wish no one had to feel pain. i wish i could change the world to be a better place. i wish i could.
i wish for so much that sometimes these wishes consume me.
wow i sound so emotional. i'm not. shockingly, i'm not crying. usually these subjects make me cry. not today. i've decided to be that change in my life that i have been craving for, for years.
change the world, one person at a time, be your own superhero. love yourself because that's the only thing you can truly be, learn to love everything about you. i love me!
