26.5.15

I miss my Cherry tree

It's been exactly a week. When 7:30PM rolled around, I felt the lump in my throat grow bigger. My eyes welled up with tears and my heart sank deep. It felt as though it had dropped to my stomach. I can't believe you're gone. And just like that, my life feels so empty. 

I, like most people with pets, understand that they leave you eventually. I, like most of those people, expect them to die at 15-20, of old age. My dog left my life at a bad time and very suddenly. I think what hurts most is watching my other dog actually cry in emotional pain. She was there when Cherry passed and sat with me as I lay with her body, crying, for 3 hours. I just knew if I let go, it would be time to take her away from me forever. I keep wishing I had a paw print of hers, a wad of her fur that bothered me for years but today I wish I was covered in it. I couldn't care less about what I lost to get my baby back in my life. I don't think anyone could have prepared me for what I am feeling today or have been feeling since. 

I spoke to my neighbour today, and I told him that it's harder to lose my dog thank a human being because there are so many faults in a person, but none in an animal. The love that I felt from Cherry is love that I doubt I can replace. I will never try to replace her but I will forever miss her. 

I love you my Cherry tree; I will forever miss you.

Broken-hearted. 

19.5.15

Rest in peace my baby.

I never knew a friendship like this could exist. Today you left my life, but you'll never leave my heart. You were in my life since I was sixteen. You were there through my lows and highs. You always loved me; even when I didn't love myself. You gave me a reason to smile everyday. You were my shoulder to cry on. I love you forever and always. Till we meet again. My baby, Cherry Elle; rest in paradise.