14.4.09

some moments are harder then others.

never in my life did i think that i would be associated with someone who went to jail, until now.

a few people in my life were put in jail a few days ago, with false allegations.
their bail hearings are in the next two days and i'm dying inside.

i can't believe it, and it's so not fair. these people are amongst my bestest and closest friends.
the fucking media is bashing them, and it's killing me inside. i don't know who to tell, or talk to.
i have been talking with a friend, but i feel like i can't cry to her, because i don't want her to cry.

let me tell you guys, this is hard, i know a lot of people have to face situations like this, and i'm sure they understand how difficult it is to support others who are involved.

i don't know who to talk to, and how to approach it all, it's too much to deal with at once, since it is not one person.

i can't wait to see them, free, and just hug them tight.
this really sucks.

12.4.09

so here i am, basically finished a semester doing fashion arts, and let me tell you, i LOVE it.
i can't believe i took this long to actually start this program.
well i haven't told you guys the good news, better late then never, at the end of february, i left my fascist job! and ofcourse i was happy to do so.
it was the best feeling, because obviously the bitch manager, but shes old news.

all i do now is study and finish assignments, and i'm loving it.
i think it has given me that whole sense of accomplishment and worth that i've been lacking since highschool died
now that i think about it, i'm glad that i took that time off though.
i have changed a lot of things in my life and i couldn't be any happier.
i wish that it continues, and that no one jinx my success.
i can feel my career coming, its an arm's length away.
one more year .. one more year, then i move off to somwhere. and begin my life, with me.

i was talking to the current boyfriend, who btw is pretty new, and actually quite charming, i told him about my plans to move out to england in the next year, he was shocked and questioned us. i hated to admit it, but all i had to say to him was, it's a year from now.. and it's far. and i'm going.

i think my main priority has shifted majorly, my parents are completely supporting me, probably won't support my plan to move, but i think otherwise they're there.

well i have an important call to attend to.. i 'll write again.
bye.
S