standstill

sometimes life feels as if it has stopped moving, stopped happening.. there are no events.. not major.. nor minor. there aren't little nothings that make you happy. mostly things that bring you sorrow, pain, and tears. today i feel as though i have given up on many things in my life. i am beginning to give up on many things, some i am trying hard not to. it seems as if i am not good enough for the things that i seek to reach, the goals seem out of my reach. why is it that i thought i was good at something but at this point i am very disappointed. i am sick of applying for roles and positions that i think match me like a glove, but to them i am just a name. i meet their credentials but i do not meet their personal needs. i know that as much as canada claims to be fair, its corporations are just as unfair and unjust. i wish i knew people, people who would benefit my career; however not everyone is so lucky.