so it has been over a month since my beautiful, courageous and wonderful grandmother passed away..
i am literally still in shock and still do not want to accept this.
though i had not seen her for years.. my grandmother was very dear to me.. and will always be a part of my heart..
everytime i think about her face.. i cry.
i wanted to see her one last time.. or not even the last.. i wanted to spend some moments with her.. that i didn't get the chance of having
what's even worse is that for certain unmentionable reasons; my parents were not able to attend her funeral.. nor any of those in our country.
so sad because i could see the pain in my father's eyes.. pain that i wish i do not have to see in my lifetime.. the pain of losing a mother..
i don't know how people deal with death.. or accept death that comes so suddenly..
on a personal level, i am unable to accept nor am able to move on from this..
i will never forget her.. and i hope to see her in heaven someday..
to all of those who have a grandparent alive.. please cherish them and show them love.. because they are here on borrowed time..
rest in peace bibi.. you will be missed forever. love you with my whole heart <3
