forever loved

i try hard to remember things from my past, but i always end up thinking about something sad.
why is it that we remember things that make us sad longer and more detailed rather then happy things?
even when i think about life in general, i automatically think about things that are sad, things that stress me out.
to be honest, i still haven't gotten over the fact that my grandmother is gone. i know people say "better in heaven, in no pain, in a better place" blah blah.. and i do believe she is in a better place.. considering she was sick.. i may even be selfish with my thoughts.. but i miss her and i wish she was here.
i wish no one had to die. i wish we lived eternally,.. and i do truly wish heaven is real.. i wish to see those who are not in my life anymore.
i believe that there is always a void.
losing someone in life is not easy.. especially if someone is special to you.. there is no way that you can get past it easily.. there is always a void.. there is always a day when you miss them and want to cry.
rest in peace bibi, i'll miss you forever -